Blindfold navigation in a sea of uncertainties.
Self reflection after actions.
Every action correspond to a reaction.
And this evening my thoughts go to Newton's third law of gravity.
Because - despite a pretty face and being labelled as a creative powerhouse, I have always been fascinated about how physics intertwined constantly into our daily routines. Of course we are generally way too busy to notice it but - in moment like these, at past midnight, I feel memories when I was in high school studying physics and remembering that feeling of achievement in finding that answer, that final result to the equation.
Nobody could believe my main subject during my final year was actually Einstein and its theory of relativity. And funny enough on my vision board I have a quote from him like this one below.
I have been trying to be imaginative the last week, pushing myself to reach out to people I seriously wanted to get in contact with. All my expectations broke, as a fragile vase all of the sudden slipped through my hands and hit the floor, disgragating in million of fragments. That's exactly how my broken expectations felt, and a mixture of emotions arose. I don't like to be disappointed, and I find it very hard to accept the failure process. Knowing that a process or a plan has the option to fail is something, but actually experiencing that, is a completely different story. That broken expectation: yes that hurt. I felt lost all over, like sailing in a sea blindfolded where I had no idea where to go. And then I simply decided to let it go, remembering again that to every actions will always correspond a reaction.
... in every interaction, there is a pair of forces acting on the two interacting objects. The size of the force on the first object equals the size of the force on the second object. The direction of the force on the first object is opposite to the direction of the force on the second object. Forces always come in pairs - equal and opposite action-reaction force pairs.
– Sir Isaac Newton.
I decided to let it go, to stop worry and to get my head down and keep working. As my father was used to say: if the plan A didn't work, you have all the other letters of the Alphabets! But joking on the side, this is a massive learning lesson for me. I truly don't think I have been disappointed so much like this in my entire life.
Thanks to last night class, I gain my confidence back, I received extremely precious insights that gave me a new bearing and a new map from which I can guide myself and my plans of action blindfolded by choice, and not by mistake. I realised that at the end of the line, on the other side of a screen, there is a person, like me. And I don't want to sound arrogant but, if they don't want to work with me it is fine - I will let it and it is simply not meant to be.
Paul Klee | Two Men Meet, Each Believing the Other to Be of Higher Rank - from the series Inventions 1903
One of the biggest take so far is that I should embrace me and the way I feel lost, and most importantly - navigate more often on uncertain waters, stop looking and start observing, stop hearing and start listening and stop talking and start storytelling,